I’m sure you’ve all read articles or seen celebrities interviewed where the retrospective question is asked “What would you tell your younger self that you know now?”. Some talk about being brave, realising you aren’t alone, stop having the self-doubts and to be your true self. Always thought provoking, it is meant to show our wisdom, how we have grown, and on the whole, that it will work out okay.
If I was asked that question I would probably tell myself, that I was actually much cleverer than I thought I was at school. I didn’t think I was “smart” enough to go to university unlike my school friends who all knew what they wanted to study post-school. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t think I was dumb, but I didn’t think I could be say a lawyer or study psychology. I know now that I could have been.
I would also probably tell myself a tough fact, that love doesn’t fix everything. You also need respect, trust, individuality and equality in a relationship. A lesson I learnt the hard way from a very bad first marriage that went on far too long.
That probably comes to my third lesson. Don’t settle for second best. I still to this day struggle with this. Stopping myself from saying “that will do” when I know in my heart and mind it isn’t okay. I need to work for, ask for, and expect more from myself and others.
The problem with the retrospective question is that I can’t really go back and tell that girl those things. Also it is easy to think that even if I’d know this advice I wouldn’t have done the same things, or maybe made worse decisions.
So are there better pieces of advice to give myself – right now? Why wait another 20-30 years to give good advice? What should I be telling myself now? What are three pieces of advice I want to give myself now?
Obviously post broken leg/hip and finding out that I have osteopenia, I need to focus on my physical health. So regular exercise, specifically weight bearing exercise and a focused healthy diet. So my advice to myself – start looking after this now so you never have to go through this recovery again. This is your chance to make a difference to your physical health and to stop this from getting worse, or happening again.
Next, stop trying to fix the things that can’t be fixed. Buy that replacement plant – that one in the pot is never going to be more than a sad pathetic bunch of twigs with a few leaves. Stop waiting for people to do the right thing on their own. They are either selfish and probably won’t change, so ditch them, or ask them straight out to do something rather than hoping they’ll share the responsibility. It is good to try, but you also need to know when to stop trying when it isn’t going to change.
Lastly, remember to fill my life with the things and people I love. Yes, I have to go to work to earn money but do I really want to apply for the job that is filled with toxic people and ambiguity? It is easy to be seduced by the next pay level, but is the extra money worth it?
I need to make the time for travel, art galleries and seeing the people I love. That means getting things organised so I have the time and resources to do it. This ranges from getting the things done in my house like my kitchen refurbishment, so I enjoy entertaining again, through to seeing a financial planner to do a review of my retirement plans so that I can keep travelling. Also asking others to step up rather than trying to do it all and becoming overwhelmed or resentful. I only have so much time to give, I need others to help out more.
There are and will be other lessons to learn, but I want the future me in 20 or 30 years to say ‘Do exactly what you did, well done. What a great life.’